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onlyforamoment
I don't even understand.
Seriously wtf.

I a retard. I have feelings. and i'm also tired.
HAPPY HEART DAY!!!
 
 
onlyforamoment
So i figured i'd better get this out ofi teh way before x-mas!

Yes i'm very busy, ye si'm tired, am i happy sure.
do i have time for anything.. not usually. If you as i WILL have to colsult my schedule.
am i ready for x-mas? No mam. Willi be? God i hope so.


What happend with the below?

Ha. Nothing is mended..We still hang out... and issues are being ignored. I'm fine with that.

Peace
 
 
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onlyforamoment
Okay...
So.. Its been 4 months since thsi whole things started. It was good. I was happy.. you were happy... you were worried about hurting me.. and i made it clear that i was fine. With everything. Its all good. I was having fun.. no commitment.. no promises.. could still do what i wanted and when... and still have you.

But bet then recently... I just don't know.... You're doing things... hugging me.. kisses linger... kisses goodbye... and saying things... "I just... didn't want you to leave".."we might as well be together... we do the things that every other couple does...".. "when people ask.. i don't know what to say".... "I'm different around you"... "Obviously i have a commitment to you and us..".. and telling me secret things.

I'm not complaining. Really. I won't lie.. I like it. But as far as i'm concerned.. I'm not suposed to. Right now... all i have to go on is your word... and.. that was "we're nopt together".. whichi was fine.. with... and now.. its harder for me to be okay with that... because of the way you're acting...

You're saying this stuff to me... and i don't know how i'm allowed to respond... Can i say: "Yeah i think we should be together...". Is that what my response is supposed to be.. I don't want you to feel like i'm shooting you down whe nyou say these things.. You're just confusing me... and so now.. I don't know what to think.

I told you the other night.. that i agreed that it feels like we're together... that the only differece between us and every other couple.. is that we haven't given ourselves a title... And i told you really... we ahev a few choices.. either you're happy the way things ar.. and we keep them that way... Or.... We give ourselves that title.. if thats what we wanna do... or... we stop.. altogether... and you said you didn't wnat to stop.. and thats where it left. You called me sweetheart and baby... and took me home...

And. NOW. You aren't calling me back.Or you did and i don't have reception to get back to you.. so...

Fuck i hate men.
 
 
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onlyforamoment
01 December 2005 @ 12:03 am
I got a funny feeling
The moment that your lips touched mine
Something shot right through me
My heart skipped a beat in time

There's a different feel about you tonight
It's got me thinkin' lots of crazy things
I even think I saw a flash of light
It felt like electricity

You shouldn't kiss me like this
Unless you mean it like that
Cause I'll just close my eyes
And I won't know where I'm at
We'll get lost on this dance floor
Spinnin' around
And around
And around
And around

They're all watchin' us now
They think we're falling in love
They'd never believe we're just friends
When you kiss me like this
I think you mean it like that
If you do baby kiss me again

Everybody swears we make the perfect pair
But dancing is as far as it goes
Girl you've never moved me quite
The way you moved me tonight
I just wanted you to know
I just wanted you to know

You shouldn't kiss me like this
Unless you mean it like that
Cause I'll just close my eyes
And I won't know where I'm at
We'll get lost on this dance floor
Spinnin' around
And around
And around
And around

They're all watchin' us now
They think we're falling in love
They'd never believe we're just friends
When you kiss me like this
I think you mean it like that
If you do baby kiss me again
Kiss me again
 
 
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onlyforamoment
21 November 2005 @ 11:02 pm
I spilled DR. PEPPER on my Cellphone. I have a new phone, but sadly no one's #. So if you ahven't called ME in the past week, or if i didn't run into you on MSN. Then sorry. You guys weren't invited. Not because i don't like you. Cuz i do. I swear. But because well.. of the above... Besides... we wnet to the bar!
 
 
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onlyforamoment
20 November 2005 @ 04:04 pm
LAST NIGHT:

To those of you that toughed it out:
Thanks SO MUCH! It was an aweosme time and i had sooo much fun. And for a good part of it (- the car rides) I forgot that my ass was killing me.. except when i had to bend over... and when people slapped my ass.... BUT.. othe rthan that.. Seriouisly.

To those of you that made an apprearance: Thans again so much, it was aweosme that you came even if you weren't able to stay the whole time. I really appreciate that you guys cared enough to show up for a bit, and t was truly good times, and i'm sorry you had to miss the rest of the fun times.

To those of you that couldn't make it due to other obligations: I'm sorry you missed it but thanks for calling the next day to see how thing went, and what you missed out on. It was nmic eto know taht even thjough you couldn't amke it you cared enough to call and let us know you cared.

T those of you that showed up by surprise: That was Freaking excellent. You guys rock my socks.

To those who SAID they were coming and then ditched out: *Blank stare*
 
 
Current Mood: enthralledenthralled
 
 
onlyforamoment
17 November 2005 @ 09:27 pm
How about fuck you?

Yeah. You guys were my friends for a very long time. Yeah i still really like you all.

But fuck you.

I'm so tired of doing all the work. If i want to see you i have to call you. and then work aruond your schedules of doing drugs and playing video games. then. I have to phone you and remind you. 3 times. Then you all ditch me anyways, with : hockey's on, Now i'm baked, i forgot your # or left to meet you before you called, but didn't tell you where we were going.

Then when i do see you, you're either too drunk/baked/burnt out to talk to me, or do anything other than play video games.

I call bullshit. I don;t doubt you guys "like me", and I know you're all fucking lazy. But I don't really want to try anymore. Because it hurts my feelings when you guys are dicks. You have to remember that I have feelings, you assholes. I'm not like the rest of you guys where its like "Oh okay. whatever". Like. Fuck.

You wanna see me? Then you call me, because i'm sick of this shit. I tried hard. For a long time. I'm not doing it anymore... and it makes me sad because this means i know i won't see you guys anmore.
 
 
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onlyforamoment
Fuck i'm tired.

Working 2 jobs sucks.

Well.. blah.

I don't have aday off till next thursday.
I'm cool with it.. I'm just sleepy.

I real;ly nee dto get laid i think.. Like actually,
 
 
Current Mood: crankycranky
 
 
onlyforamoment
OKay. So i catted it up hard core with ryan an di ithink i successfully helped him help himself...

In other news i'm very tired... and ihad sushi so that was awesome

I introduced myself to Lan and Eli at Tokyo sushi. They;re aweosme!!! ;)

Tomorrow i'm seeing tyler, and then working. WOOT.

I was suppoed to attend a party on friday but thats not going to work.. Aw shucks.
 
 
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onlyforamoment
08 November 2005 @ 06:59 pm
Name 5 of life's simple pleasures that you like most, then pick 5 people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not to use things that someone else has already used. Tag 5 people on your list.

1.A long Hot shower. Thats is. Standing under the water and letting it run all over me.
2.Cuddling under blanket, watching movies.
3.Getting a letter... like.. in the mail.
4.back massages...
5. washing my hair.

Tag: Courtney, Scott, Mike, Tyler, Brian.

The rest of you cna do it if you'd like. I'm not evil. :)
 
 
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